Stay Together

03-19-2010 Friday

I really don't know what made the management decide to finally keep our team together and undo the dispersal. From what I remember, they really don't care about bonds or ties, they only care about making money out of the people that work for them.

Anyway, it's a good thing, that means few of my remaining teammates decided to stay for now while they can still take the pressure and stress as long as we all stay together. As for me, I wanted to stay and wait for my anniversary this May since I'm starting to save money all over again. When I think about it, I still feel bad, imagine all those years of saving up money, in an instant, bam, everything's gone. I need to think about how I made my gramma happy to have my mom back and I'll feel slightly better.

Now that our team is intact again, that lessens my worries about going to work without the heart for it. I can still find reasons to be happy about this job. I'm counting on it for all the expenses which will now include my mom's lifetime medications. When I think about all of it, I'm really starting to worry that I may never save enough money for myself, and I'm too stressed at work that I really don't pay much attention to the expenses anymore. Let it worry itself, I have myself to take care of.

I guess that's all I have to say today. I'm really not in the mood lately to write because I'm getting tired of ranting, complaining, being sad, being happy.. It's all a mixed up emotions every day and I'm just tired of feeling things in general. It takes so much out of me and I don't know why even happiness does that. I want to be a robot. I want to lie down and feel nothing but my robotic heartbeat.

Labels: management, pink crimson, sprint, team, Utah, work

posted by Monica-Lynne @ 7:08 PM