Crowded Emptiness

01-15-2009 Friday

Another one will go. Brother 'Peanut' is what I call him, Carlo, to my other teammates and my manager. I'm losing two brothers by the end of this week. Just thinking about it makes me not want to go to work anymore.

The calls kept on getting worse, no opportunities to sell at all, but in spite of that, they pressure us like we're their bitches. I'm really starting to worry about what's gonna happen to us here at work. The team is slowly being shattered as we struggle to make sales to please them and to save our asses.

My team manager kept on saying that she don't know what's happening to us and the thing is she has no idea that we're also having a hard time figuring out what exactly is wrong with ourselves until we came to the conclusion that we tried our damn best, but it simply wasn't enough because the calls we're getting are im-fucking-possible to convert.

The unacceptable thing for me is they treat us like we're dipshits just because we're not able to make lots of sales. Well, that's the sad truth in this type of job that we have, hell, it applies to any situations in life. People treat you like shit if you have no use for them anymore. We just have to learn dealing with it.

I could still deal with work but the hardest thing is to deal with it alone. I was able to deal with everything because I am happy being in the team, being with this group of wonderful, supportive people. If you still remember, a year ago, I submitted a resignation letter but withdrew it because I can't bear the thought of leaving these people that I've grown up with mentally. They helped me grow as a person, as a sales rep, and they helped me open my mind about this business.

We had an extremely blissful 2 years of working together that it's hard to think about the upcoming goodbye. Well, I think, now's the time to start looking for other opportunities, greener pasture, like what others say, or in other words, a better offer for our caliber.

We are not worthless. We deserve so much more than what we're getting now and the most disappointing thing here is that the management doesn't give a fuck to those whose been with the company for a long time. All they care about is making money out of the employees that served as their cash cows. They can always terminate employees, hire new ones, and the cycle goes on and on.

I am deeply saddened by my other teammates, especially my 'brothers', decision of leaving but I can't make them stay. I never thought that it will affect me this much. I guess I never imagined myself to be emotionally attached to them.

When the weekend comes, that will be day that brother Peanut and Jeff will file their resignation. My other teammate Belle might also file or if not, she'll do it by next week. That's 3 people leaving, going on a different path while I feel like I'm still stuck in one place and my feet wouldn't..no, refused to move.

I can already envision what the office is gonna look like next week. Rows of empty swivel chairs, abandoned computer stations and awkward silence. No laughters, no dirty jokes (courtesy of the brothers), no motivation, no warm smiles and reassuring hands. The emptiness would be too much to take.

How do I move on from here? It will break my heart to part with this company but I have to save my butt from the impending doom. It's not working out anymore. I've been with this company too long, even though I'm looking for other opportunities within the company,a higher position, even that sounded unreachable as well. The key to making it to a higher position here is the friends that you make from the higher management. Basic rule of thumb; be more friendly and it literally pays. How does it work? It's a different story that I might share at another time.

For now, I'm focused on looking for my own path to take. A new road that will hopefully lead me to a better place.

Labels: call center, calls, cashcows, NCO, pink crimson, sales rep, sprint, telesales

posted by Monica-Lynne @ 2:50 AM