21 means LIFE

09-11-2009 Friday



Everytime I celebrate another year of my dramatic life, I would look back at the previous birthdays I've had and I can't help but think about how much has changed since then. It seemed like it was only yesterday when I was a kid, then a teen, now, as I approach the age of 21, I know more people would expect me to act more mature as a young adult.

To be honest, age is just a mere number to me. Aside from having a Peter Pan syndrome which is something that relates to me refusing to grow up, maybe deep down, I am thinking that I'm also afraid to grow up because of more responsibility, more expectations from other people. It is a scary thought, or maybe I'm not yet that mature when it comes to things that requires me to be more grown up.

This day, as I age another year, I am thankful to still be here. Scared, yes. Having difficulty to get by, yes. But still thankful. I consider myself lucky, I may not have everything I wanted but I am happy with what I have for now. I hate my mother but I have a dear gramma who loves me more than anything else. I have Alex. I have a couple of friends who visited and celebrated with me, to make me feel special this day. For all those, I'm thankful.

My friends from Alponsky are the first visitors of the day, they arrived at exactly time for lunch and I'm used to these guys, being always hungry for delicious food. My gramma prepared all the food and they feast on every pasta and bread. They shared stories, jokes, riddles and stuff that made me laugh and again, I'm happy to have them all to back me up whenever times get tough. My dear brothers who has always been there.

Alex arrived shortly after lunch and I introduced him to them. He is used to me having a lot of guy friends so I am glad that he's happy to meet all my friends in spite of them being all guys. They left at around 3pm and I was left with Alex. We ate a late lunch and went to SM to buy a cake for myself. I suddenly crave for something sweet so I had to buy something. Besides, it's my birthday!

By evening, Vanessa, my best friend also dropped by. We ate dinner together with Alex, had a little chat and she went home. The last visitors that evening are Meng and Angie who are two good friends whom I haven't seen in awhile. I can say that what made me happy the most is that I had the chance to introduce Alex to all the special friends I have.

Alex is the one who stayed till almost midnight to help me with all the dishes to wash since my mother has went off to watch that damn TV again and I let my gramma sleep early. After washing the dishes, Alex and I talked about going to his hometown in Cavite for a few days to retreat from all the stress. He agreed, said we can leave tomorrow which is fine with me.

When he left a few minutes after 12, I packed my clothes before going to bed. I wanted to be anywhere but here. Happy birthday to me, lalalalalala..

Labels: 21, alex, alponsky, birthday, pink crimson, sept 11

posted by Monica-Lynne @ 6:20 AM