Beginnings

05-23-2009 Saturday

We've officially moved! For the -nth time! Yippeee!

I was a sleepless walking disaster yesterday when we packed our things and hauled it all to the truck that my grandma rented. The move was sudden. We're supposed to move this weekend but imagine my surprise when I went home and saw that the wall has been ripped out already. God, their renovating the fucking house and the motherfuckers can't wait for us to leave!

Needless to say,we carried all our things, loaded it to the truck, sped away and unloaded it to the new hole where we'll stay. I was glad that Alex was there to help us out. I was tired, sweaty and cranky but thankfully he was able to put up with me and understand me. God bless his heart.

I didn't make it to work yesterday night. I didn't have any sleep for God's sake! I told my manager I can't make it, she's mad I can't blame her but I really can't force my sleepless body to come to work. Matter of fact, I fell asleep the moment my body touched the bed.

Earlier this morning, after attending the worship service, we unpacked our things since we're too tired yesterday that we just left all the boxes scattered on the floor.

I was busy throwing out some old magazines that will only consume space when I heard a motorcycle roar outside. I thought it sounded like mine but it's impossible. Alex told me he couldn't come today so I shrugged it off and went back to what I was doing. I almost jumped when I heard a familiar voice call me. It is Alex! He did come! I ran to greet him, arms open for an embrace. God, I missed him considering that we were together yesterday.

I'm starting to fall for Alex. Good. I'm starting over and I'm healing. Better. Sometimes, I still feel bad that my relationship with Mac didn't work but I guess he's just not the right one. It's just that he came first before Alex did.

I'm thankful for Alex. I owe him a lot and he's not even aware of it. He saved me. If I didn't met him, God knows I could be a lunatic by now. A frustrated ex-girlfriend who wants ether revenge or suicide.

I have him now. He loves me. It's like healing a deep wound. It's like looking up to see the sun shoo the dark clouds away to promise a better day for everyone. It's like waking up from a really bad dream and seeing the face of someone you long to see, holding you while whispering that it's just a dream and you're awake now. It's like feeling the comfort of strong arms wrapped around you, keeping you warm, making you more of a human inside.

Let's see: We have a new home, even though the rent is a bit pricey, happiness,peacefulness and comfort is priceless. I have my grandma, mother, my cats Lena, Shelby, Natalie and my dog Damien. I have someone loving me unconditionally. I have a motorcycle. What more could I ask for? Hmm.. I can think of one! A license.

posted by Monica-Lynne @ 6:05 AM