My Pawn

05-05-2009 Monday

My meet-up with Alex yesterday had to be rescheduled due to some circumstances on both of us. He has to go to Laguna, I have to deal with the seller of the XRM motorcycle. Yes you read it right, I'm buying a motorcycle. Haha. I don't know how to drive yet but I can learn. Hey, it's time to spend some of the cash I've earned through blood, sweat, tears, and every essential part of my being.

Now about Alex. He's already aware of the part he'll play for me. I told him all about it last night when we're texting. He said that's fine with him because eventually, I'll fall for him. Talk about a high level of self-esteem. I told him he can't be serious with me because I already have a boyfriend and I don't intend to leave Mac, I just want someone who will be there whenever he's not around. I just want someone to distract me, to keep me from falling too in love with him. He said he wanted to be that someone. I realized how serious he was so I asked myself if it is too late already to take back what I've said. I can't use him as my pawn. He don't deserve it if he's that serious with me.

We agreed to just meet tomorrow night so I can get my t-shirt and we can talk. Yeah. Let's all see how far my insanity is gonna take me.

posted by Monica-Lynne @ 7:32 PM