When it's over
03-02-2009 Monday
The second chance slipped from my grip because it has to end. Who am I kidding to start with? What's the sense of staying with him if it no longer makes us happy? No wait, I am happy. Happy if staying with him makes him happy. Little did I know that in doing so, I only made him more miserable with me.
I know I've changed and I know that he can feel it. Boys can be insensitive but not when it comes to sensing if a girl has lost interest in him. They're human too, gals, believe me.
I did try to work things out between us. I tried my best to regain my feelings for him but I came up with nothing. Empty. I feel like I needed some time with myself. Just me.
I vaguely remember how old I was the last time I was single. I think I'm 16? Or 17? I went from one boyfriend to the other. I guess I'm afraid to be alone. I demand too much and when they bore the hell out of me, I fall out of love. I left them and find someone else.
Not this time. I think I'll prefer to be alone for awhile and stop breaking hearts. It's time to have friends again and enjoy other peoples company. I've been too reserved and boring for the past few months so I guess it's time to loosen up a bit.
Ahh, it's good to be single again.
As for him, I'm glad that the break-up is not a bad or bitter one. Matter of fact, it was unbelievably easy for both of us. We're friends, good friends and we promised to remain that way. I am hoping he'll find someone more deserving for him because I want him to be happy.
It's over. I felt relieved tha the heavy burden has been lifted. God bless his heart.
What's next for the new single me? We'll see. I'll keep y'all posted.
posted by Monica-Lynne @ 2:02 AM
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