How's that for your ego?
02-18-2009 Wednesday
I am so glad I made the right choice when I decided to stay with my current boyfriend. Happy as we're trying to make the relationship work. Happy that he's no longer bothering my thoughts. And most importantly, happy because I found out what kind of egoistic jerk he is before it's too late.
I am so turned off. For real. He's so fucking full of himself. Eventhough, sometimes I know he's just kidding, the mocking smile on his face tells me otherwise. Sure he's got the looks, the voice (sigh) and all that but those are merely physical attributes. In time, even the high school hearthrob will look like a wrinkled tree trunk that's why I don't really go for overly handsome guys. Screw them. They're good while they lasted. Ha-ha.
I spend my days at work mingling with my wonderful teammates. I don't even bother look his way or make an effort to have small talks with him. Sometimes, he still joins us during our lunchbreak and I just let him. If he talk, I'll talk. He ask me a question, I gave a brief response.
The more I'm around him, the more I realize what an airhead he is and I have to repeat this: I am SO turned off. It's like I should feel lucky that he hangs out with me. Whenever we're having a conversation, there's something about his demeanor that says 'Oh yeah I'm a hot and goodlooking guy and you know that'. I also realize how different we are from each other. We're poles apart.
Here's how: Years of experience has humbled me, molded me into a silent fighter. I don't just talk to brag. I talk when I have an opinion to share. I talk when needed. Other than that, writing is still option one. I also don't think of myself as the prettiest thing alive. I NEVER brag about my looks. Ever. I even adore other girls who are prettier. Instead of thinking that my friends are lucky to have me, I think that I'm lucky to have them. All of those traits that I have, he's completely the opposite. Or maybe I'm judging him too soon.
Nah. Boys who flirt with other girls inspite of being in a relationship are bigtime losers. They are also insecure because they're not satisfied with their girl's affection so they beg someone else's attention. They think they look better when they have more chicks wrapped around their arms. That won't work for me. Flirting with different girls doesn't make you more of a man. It is is a shrewd way of exposing yourself as an insecure bastard.
Mr. Airhead can flirt to all the girls at the office, but he can spare me.
My new hobby? Letting him stare all he want but that's all he can do. I'm done with my obsession.
The result? So far so good.
posted by Monica-Lynne @ 6:11 PM
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