Planning Ahead

02-17-2010 Wednesday

It feels wonderful to finally have a clear goal in life, not a short-term kind of goal, something real, and reachable, given the right length of time. It's gonna take awhile to complete that goal but what matters is I'm gonna start it now, at my age, while all the others wait around and waste their time.

Getting that house is all I have to think about to be driven in going to work. Even though I still feel sick, I went to work today and I'm here, typing effortlessly, not wanting to stop bragging about my future plans. There's no one to share it with but you guys, you dear readers/followers. The one person I thought would appreciate me sharing this, turned out to be uninterested, so I have to erase him out of my 'important people included in my future' list.

I am still sick to my stomach. I went to the doctor yesterday and found out I have Acute Gastro-oh shit I forgot,something-something. I can't eat a lot, when I get hungry, I should eat slow, one bite at a time, and I should take some medications for me not to throw up the food I just ate. The doctor suggested I should take a leave and not force myself to work, I just nodded, but in my mind, I plan to take a day off then go back to work. Goals, remember?

Had it been me before, who has no goals or anything, I could've kissed that doctor who gave me 3-5 days rest but now is different. I have to go to work to earn money, to get my salary, to get the house. There's a lot of things to think about. I took a 1 day rest yesterday, and since I didn't throw up the entire day today, I gathered myself together and decided to go to work. I'll just stare at my medical certificate and dream about the 3-5 days rest I could've taken.

I'm already dreaming about designing my own house, planning to buy a sofa and dining table, and probably a new bed also. If I can earn a lot more than what I'm earning now, I know it'll be easy for me to do all that. If I can earn enough without worrying about my mother going crazy again.

I was too busy thinking about the house, and my future with it that I've completely forgotten about my mom, who'll be released this 23rd of February. What will she be like when she gets back at home? God, I don't wanna think about her ruining my plans. Please, let her be in a clear state of mind, let her be sane, while I focus on work and earning money for my house.

If she ever acts fucked up again and destroys my plan of saving money, I swear I'll call the local police and have her hauled up in some cheap bin for the lunatics. That is, if my gramma will allow me. Arggh. Problems with her are resurfacing again, and I hate it, I hate her ruining my life. She'll be coming back, that means doomsday for me.

Well, I have to concentrate on one thing for now. Work. Hitting the goal to stay here longer. By Friday, I'll be able to pay the reservation fee for the house, then I'll start processing my requirements. I have to hurry if I want to get away from this company and find one that's gonna give me more pay for my skills. The agent told me that after I completed my requirements and after the approval of loan from Pag-Ibig, it'll take a couple of months for me to be able to move to the new house. 4-6 months at the earliest. 6 months for me to stay here longer?! Oh well, if it has to be that way...

I'm planning ahead now, even though I feel like I'm on this plan alone, I have to do it. I have to count on myself and no one else will help me on this one. Not even that one person whom I'll refuse to name from now on.

Labels: agent, call center, house and lot, housing loan, Pagibig, pink crimson, work

posted by Monica-Lynne @ 5:28 PM