With Love Love

12-28-2009 Monday

After Alex dropped me off at our house last night, he stayed with me. I know it's his way of trying to make up for the times that we were not together. I woke up and found him curled up on the floor, with my blanket pulled up to his face and I smiled to myself because God knows I also missed seeing him first thing in the morning.

We had breakfast together, watched TV like what we always do before whenever he'd stay at home with me, and around noon, we headed to Fairview to exchange the Monterey gift checkes that I received from my aunt, of course. We went home and prepared lunch together. I thought that after eating, he would leave but he didn't. He stayed, still and slept on my bed all afternoon while I watch TV with my gramma.

It was already evening when he left and as he drove away, I wished that this really means starting over. I know that he loves me, I just wish that he has more time for me and I wanted to feel that I'm still more important than his job.

I think, this time, what I'll do is not expect too much. I'll let things fall into place if he's really the one (I'm really hoping to God he is). I will continue focusing on my job to keep doing well. When we both have time, then we can meet, if not, I'll think of something else to do without him.

I have a wonderful life to live and I need to live it well.

Labels: alex, gramma, love, pink crimson, relationships

posted by Monica-Lynne @ 3:52 AM