Utah Xmas Party (and something in Between)

12-27-2009 Sunday

Team UTAH Xmas Party!
















(slightly drunk and keeping my stomach from showing...)




(the cook!)


(the beer!)


(belting it out!)




(the exchange gifts!)

Come on lemme hear everyone scream, 'Parrrtaaayyy!', that's like party with an edge to it. Haha.

I've been down for a couple of days now because of what's happening between me and Alex so I decided that I needed a break from all of it, let loose and have some innocent fun with my teammates. This is the Christmas party we've all planned for awhile and we almost can't believe that after almost two years of being together as a team, it's just now that it finally happened.

After our shift, we all went to our teammates house that served as our party venue. We had tons of food, bunch of laughter, and lots of beer. I mean, lots of it for real. I don't know how we manage to come up with a more than what we hoped for since we were asked to just give 200 bucks per head, and there's like 11 or 12 of us, if I'm not mistaken, but the food and all of it seemed to accommodate 24 people!

We sang in the videoke, went crazy with jokes from our brothers who never fails to deliver the right punchlines at the right time and we had our exchange gifts. The gift I received is a Chuck Taylor rubber shoes bought from tiangge (our budget for the gifts is P500) and I liked it. I never asked for an original one because I know that it costs a fortune and besides, it's not the worth of it that matters, what matters is you have something to use or wear. I liked it, no, I loved it, it comes in wonderful color combination of violet and pink.

As the party goes on, I could feel my head spinning a little bit. I might've drunk too much beer but I didn't care, I wanted to be happy and forget about Alex even for just awhile. He texted me, asking me where I am, telling me that he will pick me up if I need him, and curse me because I can't help myself from wanting to see him so bad so I asked him if he can pick me up at Quezon Ave when our party ends.

After the party, Alex picked me up and I was slightly drunk so I had to hold on to him as we sped away on the motorcycle. I missed him so much. I clung to him tightly, pressing my face against his broad shoulders.

He stopped at a quiet place where we can talk before going home. I said everything I wanted to say to him and all the things that I can't seem to understand between us. He explained his side, and he cried when I told him that I really wanna break up for real. I saw the pain in his eyes when he said that he knows that he's hurting me so if letting me go would mean that I wouldn't be hurt anymore then he'd rather do that.

I was torn between my pride of wanting to show him that I can live on without him and my feelings for him that doesn't wanna let go. In the end, I don't know if it means I'm weak or if it means I really love him that much, I wanted to stay with him. I don't know how many times we've said that we'll start over but now I've come up with this thought that if you love someone that much, you're willing to start over and over till it finally works out.

Labels: alex, beer, Christmas, love, Party, pink crimson, relationships, Utah

posted by Monica-Lynne @ 3:49 AM