Yin-Yang
08-09-2010 Monday
When light is the brightest, the shadow is the darkest..
YANG
Right before my shift ended earlier this morning, I received a message from Alpon saying that my housing loan has already been approved by Pag-Ibig (finally!) and that I need to meet up with the agent because she'll help me set up a checking account. I immediately replied, telling him I will find the time to meet up with her this Friday after my shift. He also reminded me to bring the partial payment for the miscellanous fee. Well, of course, now that I know I'm approved, I wouldn't hesitate to hand the money over.
Alpon wished me luck and he said I can text the agent if I have more questions. I didn't bother. I know she'll try to reach me anyway. I put my cellphone in my bag and walked home happily. I thought it's never gonna come to this. I've been waiting for that damn approval for months and I'm starting to get upset because it's taking too damn long compared to my colleague who got her approval in less than a month. I even came to a point when I wanted to retract the application and just reapply with another agent but they've told me that the reservation fee I've paid for is non-refundable. I almost gave up, I don't wanna worry about it when I already have a handful of things to take care of.
The agent texted me and said I should meet up with her this Friday so she can accompany me to Bulacan where I will sign some more documents, finalize the submission of all the necessary requirements and open a checking account. Looks like I'm looking forward to another hectic day on my supposed to be rest-day. Sigh. Well, I gotta take care of all this while I still can...
YIN
The church minister already knew about my case. Time to face the thing that I've been trying to run away from. I braved up and talked to him to know about what the decision is gonna be.
The deaconess who lives near our house accompanied me to the minister's office. She has set my expectations about the decision. I will be removed, regardless if Alex converts or not. That's why I need to talk to the minister directly.
Hearing the word 'removed' made me worry. I thought about my gramma. She'll be crushed if she finds out. That's all I'm thinking about as I entered the narrow office of our minister.
He was there in his chair when I came in. He gestured for me to take a seat, to which I obliged quietly. I didn't look down or anything, that would make me look too guilty. I kept my face calm, and steadied my gaze.
Sitting in the small airconditioned office, in the same chair where I sat beside Alex months before when I brought him here to listen to our preachings, I can't help but think how time flies so fast and how many things can happen over a short period of time.
He didn't scold me, didn't raise his voice, or didn't show any sign of disappointment towards me. He calmly explained how it's gonna work. I need to write a formal letter addressed to our executive minister, explaining the entire situation and ending it with what I intend to do about it. I asked him if I will be removed, he said the decision will depend on my letter and on my commitment.
The only thing that lessen my worry is when he told me that if I'll be removed, they will help me get back. If Alex doesn't want to convert and I choose to leave him, it'll only take them a month before I can go back. But, if Alex decides to convert, undergo the preachings and all, then I can go back after he converts.
I know this time is gonna come when I would have to decide. I can hide from it, but I can't completely run away from everything. Sooner or later, it will find it's way to find me. Well, here it is now, it found me. It's decision time, once again.
YIN AND YANG
One day. Two opposing forces. Something is out there, something that doesn't want me to be completely happy for one freaking day.
I need to talk this over with Alex. Dum-dum-dum.
The deaconess who lives near our house accompanied me to the minister's office. She has set my expectations about the decision. I will be removed, regardless if Alex converts or not. That's why I need to talk to the minister directly.
Hearing the word 'removed' made me worry. I thought about my gramma. She'll be crushed if she finds out. That's all I'm thinking about as I entered the narrow office of our minister.
He was there in his chair when I came in. He gestured for me to take a seat, to which I obliged quietly. I didn't look down or anything, that would make me look too guilty. I kept my face calm, and steadied my gaze.
Sitting in the small airconditioned office, in the same chair where I sat beside Alex months before when I brought him here to listen to our preachings, I can't help but think how time flies so fast and how many things can happen over a short period of time.
He didn't scold me, didn't raise his voice, or didn't show any sign of disappointment towards me. He calmly explained how it's gonna work. I need to write a formal letter addressed to our executive minister, explaining the entire situation and ending it with what I intend to do about it. I asked him if I will be removed, he said the decision will depend on my letter and on my commitment.
The only thing that lessen my worry is when he told me that if I'll be removed, they will help me get back. If Alex doesn't want to convert and I choose to leave him, it'll only take them a month before I can go back. But, if Alex decides to convert, undergo the preachings and all, then I can go back after he converts.
I know this time is gonna come when I would have to decide. I can hide from it, but I can't completely run away from everything. Sooner or later, it will find it's way to find me. Well, here it is now, it found me. It's decision time, once again.
YIN AND YANG
One day. Two opposing forces. Something is out there, something that doesn't want me to be completely happy for one freaking day.
I need to talk this over with Alex. Dum-dum-dum.
Labels: alex, approval, housing loan, INC, Pagibig, pink crimson, religion, yin yang
posted by Monica-Lynne @ 7:18 PM
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