Smoldering Hot

04-12-2010 Monday

When I opened my eyes, it was still dark outside. I checked my cellphone and the digital clock on it told me it was only 4 in the morning. I never wake up late these days. I always wake up too early that's why I get a really bad headache in the morning. I tried going back to sleep but it was useless. The pain returns along with my consciousness.

I can't help but stare at the empty space beside me on the bed, the space that was usually occupied by Alex whenever he would stay for the night. I swear I can even smell him in the pillow where he always lay his head on. Realizing how empty I felt, the sadness comes creeping back and I ask myself if I really mattered to him. No messages on my cellphone. He could at least have told me why he couldn't come.

I lie in bed for another hour or so, and when I noticed the sun's rays entering the room, I thought it was already 7 in the morning. Well, it wasn't. Summer is so darn hot in this country that even at 6 in the morning, the sun is almost halfway up the sky. Knowing I'll never be able to sleep, I dragged my feet to the kitchen and prepared oatmeal for breakfast.

As always, I seem to watch how time passes by while I stay rooted in one particular spot, unable to move along with the time. It's another hot boring day and I have no plans on avoiding this boring thing. If he doesn't care about me, I'm fine with it, I don't care about myself either.

When will this freaking summer end? It's too damn hot that even if you're just in the comforts of your home, you sweat in every pore of your body. That's how hot it is these days. I miss the rainy days. Gloomy, dark, cold, that's what I needed and now here's what I got; A smoldering hot weather.

Not enough sleep. Day off. Hot as hell afternoon. Welcome to my boring day, folks. If this continues on, I might as well die.

Labels: alex, gloomy, hot, pink crimson, summer

posted by Monica-Lynne @ 6:42 PM