Truth, Faith and Challenges

03-28-2010 Sunday

Now that everyone in the family knew about it, I feel more comfortable at home knowing that they both knew what I'm going through. I also felt better after my mom talked to Alex and asked him what his plans are. Even though I can feel that Alex is still half undecided, I know it makes a difference once he was able to talk to my mom. He likes mothers, he is close to his mother and he wouldn't do anything that will hurt one.

He came around 5 in the afternoon. It somehow helped that I texted his boss last night, I told his boss I need him to be at our house before evening, sort of emergency reasons and I'm glad that the people I wasn't expecting to help were actually there to help out. His boss even texted me to make sure that Alex arrived at our house in time. With that, I need to delete his name on my Hate List, time to love and appreciate people that deserves it.

If you remember, I used to hate his boss because he seemed to always go to places and ask Alex to drive him around. I thought he's such a heartless rich old man but I finally saw the good side of him today and I feel better to have his name added on my NFF-Uhh new found friend. Haha.

Kidding aside, now that they all know about it, it doesn't mean that the problem has ended, matter of fact, everything will start to get harder from now on. I feel like we're racing against time, I have to count the days down that I have left before I can finally say if my happy ending will come true. I talked to Alex and he gave me the assurance that he won't leave me, but he simply doesn't want to convert to our religion.

I begged him to give it a try. I even dared him to bring a Catholic bible, any type of bible and ask all questions and if there is only ONE, ONE question he has that's not answered, or ONE verse in the bible that will state about our religion being the wrong kind, then he can quit from even trying. That's how strong my faith is and that's how much I believe that I'm doing this to save him.

He said he knew that all his questions will be answered and I said of course, it will be, so what makes it difficult for him to try? I told him it may be a long and hard road but as long as we're together, I know we can make it. I'm willing to help him. He asked me what if after he listened and everything, he still decided he doesn't want to convert? I have no answer for that because I've been praying for him and I believe I will not fail. I told him I believe that he is smart, he'll know what to do, he'll know what to believe in once he has listened to what we are teaching.

He said it seems like everything is in favor of me and I told him it's not, it's actually in favor of you. This is a challenge of faith and love. I have to win, I have to win for him and for my family to not be hurt by my mistakes. I owe this to them, I need to make this right that's why I'm fighting. I'm holding on to my God, and He never failed, not even once.

After the talk we've had, we ate dinner and watched TV. In a few minutes, I heard him snoring in my bed. My mom asked me if Alex will stay for the night and I told her I wasn't sure, I'll let him sleep for awhile because he looked awfully tired. By 9:30, I softly woke him up and told him it's getting late. I thought he's gonna leave but I was relieved when he parked his motorcycle inside, closed our front gate and went back inside our house. The moment his head hit the pillow, he was fast asleep again and I lie down next to him, prayed silently for everything to turn out right, then went to sleep.

Labels: alex, faith, family, love, pink crimson, relationships, religion

posted by Monica-Lynne @ 5:12 PM