A Reason to Stay

08-14-2009 Friday

"What about you, what makes you stay?" I was taken aback when my teammate-slash-batchmate-slash-big bro Jeff threw that question back at me,when we talked about the shitty work we have, after our tiring 8-hour shift.

When I asked him that, he quickly answered that he's already considering of resigning, rather than wait to be terminated because of his performance, at least with that, he can come back.

I was silent for awhile before I could answer, I couldn't look at him. I thought to myself, 'yeah, good question, what makes me stay'? Given that there are other opportunities outside NCO especially with the fact that being a tenure in this company made me a good candidate for other call centers, in addition to that is, of course, higher salary somewhere else. So seriously, what makes me stay in spite of being under a shitty management?

I simply answered to him that I don't know, but in the back of my mind, those thoughts linger, even as I rode the jeepney on my way home that morning. I guess the answer to that question is still the same as the realization I've had a couple of months ago when I submitted a resignation letter but ended up taking it back. I am in love with this company. It's just the acount itself and the assholes in position are the things that make our job similar to being doomed in hell. Putting those shits aside, the company itself is warm and it has been my second home for more than two years now.

I also love my wonderful teammates. We rely on each other, we make each other laugh, we are a family to each other because it's the only way to keep ourselves from missing the real families we left at home. These people are the ones I look up to. People who, like me, has probably developed brain damage from too much stress, lack of sleep and caffeine overdose. If I resign, I will definitely miss the laughs we always share in between calls, or the teasing we throw at each other, and even the pizza party every once in a while. Without these people around me, I doubt if I can still stay this long without losing my mind completely.

Now, the fact that Jeff, one of the very few remaining batchmates I have, is thinking about applying to another company, makes me sad somehow. Is this what's gonna happen if things don't look good at the end of this month? Are my other teammates starting to consider resigning as well? I never thought things could get that bad but hopefully, God please, we can still survive another month or so. I mean, August is about to end, when September comes, the holiday season is just around the corner at that time. Who would want to resign before the happy month of December?

Well, I don't know about them, but I'm staying here. I may feel like I wanna give up but I always find reasons to continue and I thank God for that.

Labels: americans, call center, NCO, pink crimson, work

posted by Monica-Lynne @ 8:33 PM