Beginnings..Over and over again..

11-01-2009 Sunday


I'm sorry I know y'all are gettin' tired from the usual title of my post for each beginnings of the month but for the record, I don't really give much of a damn, I just feel the need to apologize because I'm sick of it myself, so I figured y'all are getting sick more than I do. Don't worry, when my mind is less drained from work, maybe I can come up with a more decent title for each post, but for now, you blog seekers better bear with me.

Ok, here we go again. Another new month begins, my mom leaves tomorrow, and I can finally rest during my day off, what more could I ask for this month? Just the fact that my mom has a job again which means she'll finally be out of sight,, is more than enough reason for me to rejoice this month.

So what's left for me to do? Uhh, let's see... Alex seemed to be fine even though we barely see each other, which pisses me off but I have to hide it because I'm being the perfect, understanding girlfriend for him. I mean, seriously, I'm trying not to be difficult and I'm trying (and trying and trying) not to nag him over again about Ms. Fat Bitch and ms. Lesbo Bitch. Besides, I promised him that once my mom leave, I'm gonna leave him alone and not keep asking for his time.

Starting tomorrow, I will become the me I've always wanted to be. Calm, alone, homebody potato couch and bookworm, in short, I'm gonna be downright boring. Alone and boring without anyone. Not even a boyfriend beside me.

Sometimes I missed being single. IT makes no difference if your guy is not always with you, not texting you or anything. You just wait till you're going slightly crazy. Well, I'm happy with him, it's just that, I wish he's more like the Alex that I've fallen in love with at the summer slam. The Alex that shows every minute how much I mean to him. The Alex that does the extra effort just to see me. I'm not saying that he's no longer like that, I feel like, he's less than what he used to be.

Whatever it is, I'm happy being on my own. I have the house to me and my gramma again and that's all that matters to me. Bye bye bitch. Bye bye madness. Hello hello happiness.

Labels: alex, daughter, mother, novmber, pink crimson

posted by Monica-Lynne @ 5:02 AM