..and this is the part that changes everything.

I woke up, sweating, feeling the awful pain in my stomach, with my head feeling light and heavy at the same time. When I checked the time in my cellphone, I groaned loudly, I've only had three hours of sleep. Not a good time to wake up. I got out of bed to take a dump real quick so I can go back to sleep. After 10 minutes in the toilet, nothing came out, I felt the pain subside somehow. I went back to the room, lie down to bed and tried to go back to sleep. Only a few seconds has passed, the pain came back. I rushed to the bathroom..nothing. Back to the room, still painful. Bathroom, one dump. Room, the pain's getting stronger.

Alarmed, I grabbed my cellphone to text Alex. I also texted my colleague and Alpon to ask about my situation, they both said the same thing--I should go to the hospital, asap. This is really a bad case of indigestion. That's all. I don't want to think of the other possibility because it's too early for that, I thought glancing at the calendar hanging on the wall. Aug 11. Yep, this is not possible.

When Alex opened the door, I was kneeling on the floor, twisting in pain. The cramp has gotten worse.

"You okay? What happened?" he asked, kneeling beside me.

"Not really.." I said through clenched teeth. I struggled to sit on the bed to show him the messages on my cellphone.

Silly conversation between two people who knew nothing about what was going on.

We packed some clothes in a small bag and off we went. He hailed a cab, we got in, and then, it began. The excruciating travel from where we were staying in Manila to the hospital in Quezon City, where my doctor is. During that moment of my struggle against the pain I'm not really familiar with, all I could was hold on to Alex and wonder how am I gonna be able to survive it. I was close to fainting. I want to cry but it feels like it wouldn't do any good. I've been warned about how painful it's gonna be, but this is definitely worse than what I imagined.

......

Getting back on track in this blogging thing is not as easy as I thought it would be. I've forgotten one simple fact about myself. While I was not able to update, or write anything down, my mind goes on a hiatus and now that I desperately want to get on with my writing, there are cobwebs inside my brain that's keeping me from producing meaningful sentences. I wonder how long would I have to wait until my mind is completely working full time again...

But I badly needed to post something here. To keep it going. To record the highlights of my life. That's why even though I've mentioned that I don't intend on posting what I've previously prepared on my old notebook, I guess I have to post them to fill this lonely blog with words. In order to keep it going, in order for the few lovely people to, hopefully, keep reading...

Uhh. I have to find my notebook first.

If you're patiently waiting for an update, I'm terribly sorry, but it looks like it's not gonna happen anytime soon.

A lot of things has happened since the last time I copied and pasted from my notepad to this blog. I wanted to update everyone so bad it's just that for one thing, my computer is busted right now, second, I'm back home with my gramma (!) where the nearest internet cafe is a good 5 minute walk from our house, and third, I'm currently not in my best physical fitness to walk around.

When the time is right, I'll come back with my surprising news. I've turned a new chapter in my life and it's something I'm more than excited to share...at the right time.

Let me rest in peace for now.